i wish i was looking to your eyes...

wala akong maisip na title para sa post na ito. adik talaga ako. thinking of you by katty perry ang pinakikinggan ko ie.

well, this post is about what is happening. about what is on my mind. what is bothering my existence at this point of time. the reason why am i feeling like this, this past few days. the feeling that couldn't stop bugging my head. the feeling that i hate and what i'm trying to avoid all this year. the feeling that everything is falling apart and i'm one of the reason causing all these trouble. the feeling of uselessness because i don't have something to offer to resolve what is going on. the feeling that everything might be a waste. the feeling of ending this. end it all immediately. but what can i do? i don't know how it made me be like this but i think it did me good. my frame of mind is in a state that no one would think will happen. no one would believe it but trust me, it affected many already.

relationships gone. love gone. friends long gone. many of those incident happened this past few days. it is like we are in emotional roller coaster that no one can get out off. it is really hard to take specially many are confused. they haven't made up their mind with the incidents happening. why am i BV this past few days? i think that i just don't like what is happening to us right now. i disagreed with decisions made. i judged people immediately that i din't think of what will happen next. i misunderstood other people's explanations. i didn't listen to what they want to say.

as much as possible, i don't want to say this bad things to people but i don't want to keep this inside of me because it is greatly affecting me and the people around me. this is really the time of desperate measures. even though i tried my best to be the inspiration guy, i can't because i'm one of the people that doesn't have inspiration go on.